While I no longer blog at The Geeky Nutcase (due to personal reasons), I still write in some sort of way. Journaling is not writing, per se, but it allows me to place every single thought and worry down on paper. I normally journal once before bed, and then sometime later that evening. Of course, my bedtime is usually after midnight, so it’s about twice a day when I write. I tell people that they can write how many times in a day that they want to. Anxiety doesn't have a routine, so journaling doesn't either. My current journal has some short and long entries, and that’s okay. I have written down things that seem trivial and possibly childish, but at that moment, it needed to go on paper. Here is how my current journal entries begin:
DATE
DAY
ANXIETY RATING: (Usually in the upper right hand corner of the paper
And it continues with that. Anxiety always goes first for several reasons, the biggest being: If I didn't write it down, it would continue to plague me.
Before I forget, I have doodle breaks in between some of the entries to break up the depression when re-reading some of them. I've really come to like patterns, and that is mostly what I "draw." Drawing being in quotation marks because I really don't have the best drawing skills.
Loop-de-loops of wonder!
PATTERNS GALORE!
Sort of Tim Burton-ish.
So how is my anxiety doing? I've started calling it a “pogo stick” as of lately. It’s up and down on a constant basis. While it’s mentally and spiritually exhausting, I’m learning to embrace and be grateful for those good days.
ABOUT AMANDA K.

Your drawings are beautiful :). Have a wonderful weekend!
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